If you know me, you know that I am easily verklempt. Tears come freely and easily from things as simple as listening to a touching song, sharing my love for a great book or reminiscing about a family event. Want to turn me into a blubbering mess at the drop of a hat? Start talking to me about my kids and how proud I am of them and my eyes fill up every single time.
I’ve gotten more teary since I’ve had kids, but honestly I’ve always suffered from “watery eye syndrome”. When I was a kid my sister used to think I was turning on the waterworks to get sympathy from my dad. “Crystal’s crying again. What a surprise” she would mutter shaking her head.
I’ve always been a tearful person. I don’t know what it is. I’m not crying because I’m sad, I’m crying because I’m filled with emotion and it all just comes bubbling out. Having kids has made it 100 times worse. Seriously, I easily wipe tears from my eyes AT LEAST once a day.
Last week I cried at Bean’s school for the first time. I’m actually shocked that I made it 2 1/2 weeks into the school year without crying. I was pretty sure that I would lose it on the first day of kindergarten, but somehow I held it all together. So what made me cry? Let me set the scene.
When: Meet the teacher night.
Where: Bean’s Kindergarden Classroom.
Why: We were walking around the classroom, looking at all of the different stations, photos and craft projects from the first few weeks of school when I saw a sign on the wall. It read:
What Thoughts Make You Feel Calm When You Are Nervous?
Surrounding this sign was artwork from some of the kids in the class. I started reading all of the kids responses nodding in agreement or chuckling as I read what each child chose. Then Bean wandered over to me, took my hand in hers, looked at me with her big brown eyes and said:
“Mommy, that one’s mine. When I feel nervous all I have to do is think about you cuddling me on the couch and it makes me feel safe and calm. I love you mommy.”
Cue blubbering mess. My daughter. Bless her heart. She gets me every time.
Tell me… have there been any life changing events in your life that have made you more prone to tears? Do you cry on a regular basis or are you a “I only cry when someone dies” type of person? When was the last time you had a good cry?